Wednesday, March 12, 2008
It Sneaks up on You
You don't get over it
you just get through it...
you don't get by it
because you can't get around it
it doesn't get better
it just gets different
grief puts on a new face.
It ambushed me yesterday. That's what grief does. Especially when you're trying really hard to ignore it....it sneaks up on you.
I've been going to grief therapy and am reading this really great book about grief entitled "I Wasn't Ready to Say Goodbye" by Brook Noel and Pamela D. Blair, ph.d cause no matter what we think grief is and think we know what to expect, it's not that! I've lost close friends and family members and this grief is not the same. This is deep into my soul grief and I'm learning that it will become a part of me from this moment on. As I tell my friends, I'm not the person I was two months ago, so please try to understand and accept the new me as I work through this and get to peace, someday. My days are filled with extreme emotions lately. I have one good day, two bad ones, then another good one, and so on. Just knowing this is the natural progression of grief keeps me from thinking I'm going insane.
Thanks for all your Happy Birthday wishes yesterday...they helped more than you know!